Onwards and Forwards

I've been looking back quite a bit recently, and while it's not necessarily a bad thing, I don't want to get in the habit of it for too long. Moving forward is important. Now that I've become a lot more comfortable with who I am, and become more used to being on meds, it's time to start making strides towards what I want, otherwise I'mma be stuck for a long time. I don't want that.

But it's hard! Sometimes it's a pain in the neck trying to figure out what it is that you want, and even harder to get there. But I've got two goals right now. I want to move out and get a place of my own, and I want to get my book published. Sounds easy right?

So much goes into each of those, though! Like, there are so many things! I need to make more money than I do now, I need to build up my credit, find a roommate, etc, etc. On the other side of things, getting published is really complicated and takes one heck of a long time. Right now, I'm looking at my options, trying to decide between traditional vs self publishing. Truthfully, I'm leaning towards self-publishing, but I want to apply to a few traditional houses. Partly out of curiosity, but also partly because why not? I also need to work on writing some query letters and book proposals to send to said traditional publishers. But...query letters are terrifying. They trick you into thinking they're simple, but because it's a totally different type of writing than a fictional story, it's a pain. Oh, and triggers my anxiety and college application ptsd. 

But I wont let that stop me. I have found and will find workarounds to get the things done, and continue to set and meet goals. It'll be worth it in the end.