Busy, Nervous, Excited


This week is gonna be a busy one! I have the kiddo this week, I have appointments, and I also have to write up what I'm going to talk about next month at the writer's meeting, and start figuring out stuff for October and November. Oh, and I will have a surprise for you all next Monday, but until then, please enjoy this picture of a distracted Vivi who's pleased with how her makeup turned out for once. 

The closer we get to October, the more I'm getting excited for my ten to fifteen minute talk. I really hope that some of the things I've found that work for me help others and encourage them. But I'm also fighting that inner voice that says I'm not qualified enough to talk, I don't know enough to be a speaker at our monthly meetings, no-one's gonna care what little I have to say, and so on and so forth. But...there's still a big enough part of me that doesn't care and won't listen to that voice. (It's still there.) That voice won't stop me, not this time.

Whenever that voice tries to surface, I distract myself with something else and remind myself that I already decided to do this, so I'm gonna do it. I know myself well enough to know that I'll enjoy speaking when I get up there, but until then, yay nerves! It'll be fine, and it'll go well. (Even if it doesn't, then maybe my failure will be entertaining and make people laugh. Either way, I'm creating memories.)

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  1. NancySeptember 21, 2021 at 7:03 AM

    I’m looking forward to your sharing, Vivienne! You have valuable things to say and you are appreciated more than you know. God is with you and your friends are cheering you on! So glad you said yes.

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