Vivi is an Adult!....Sometimes


So, a couple things I've noticed after being on meds for a while: my memory is still kinda crappy, but at least I know Why. And somehow its easier and harder to get things done. Partly depends on the thing. I have been feeling really stuck, in a couple of ways, and I've been trying different things to feel less stuck. Sometimes, talking to my aunt helps get me unstuck because she sees things I can't. Sometimes what helps is dressing up and talking with an Irish accent and getting a henna tattoo.

Sometimes what helps is reaching out to your people. I've been looking at artists to get a tattoo, and I know what I want and where I want it on myself. But I'm not making this decision alone. I've been really enjoying the massive amount of advice and recommendations I've been getting. Makes me feel like I'm not only surrounded by people who get it, but shows me that there's a wealth of information easily accessible if I just ask. 

But on the other hand, I still feel stuck, while feeling more myself. The meds have been helping me feel overall more balanced, the mood swings less extreme, but some things on my to do list still feel overwhelming and too big. But! I fought back, and I got one of those things done today! Being a human is hard, but there are always people to go to for help, even if you have to go to a place of business to ask the questions. You'll find people who are willing and kind and informative. <3

(Pic taken by the lovely Kyrie Tong)

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