Friends, Learning and Growing


It's kind of funny, looking back at how things have changed in just a few years. I used to spend most of my time working at the library and spending free time with friends from college, and we'd stay up late watching movies, doing nails, and talking about stories. I miss those nights. That particular friend (now adopted sister) has since moved a state away, and I can't really stay up till 3am with her laughing over stories unless we're both on the phone or video chat. 

One dear friend from high school (who helped me retain some sanity from the bullying and other high school nonsense) has since ghosted me, and I've not heard from her in about three years. This makes me really sad, honestly. It's hard not to wonder if I did something, or if a mutual friend or family member said something to drive a wedge between us. It's been frustrating trying not to care, but having her constantly on my mind. I don't know what to do, so I've decided not to do anything. I've reached out as much as I possibly can. It is what it is.

However, I recently reconnected with another college friend, someone who's energy was always fun to be around. And I got a bonus friend, as well! He and his girlfriend have had me over a few times, and we've had a lot of fun catching up and sharing stories and playing games. I also have kept one of my library work friends, and we've stayed in touch by playing DnD, as well as meeting up for coffee and writing parties. Combine that with my found family made of people I met in and around renaissance faire, and I have a wonderful group of humans who I get to call my people.

It's nice to be around people who value me for who I am, not who I pretend to be sometimes. It's so refreshing to have a group of people I can be authentic with, in a place where instead of judgment, there's only affection and acceptance.

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