Hey Vivi, What Have You Been Up To?

 


Let me tell you about a thing. I've talked about it before, but I want to go into more personal detail. Executive Dysfunction. First of all, it sucks. Second, it's frustrating because it doesn't make sense, a lot of the time. Recently, I've been wanting to do a number of things, watch my favorite new tv show, catch up on my favorite dnd show, write, and work on some drawings for friends. 

Have I done any of those? Well, other than writing, no. Not really. Why? I just need to do the things, why can't I do the thing? It's something I want to do, but I just can't sit down and do it. *sigh* I get easily frustrated because whenever I have enough time to work on something, I feel mentally exhausted, or I forget, or I feel too restless to actually get something done. Oh, and don't get me started on focus. 

Now, I'm not going to lie, this can get really frustrating. It is something people with ADHD struggle with, but they're not alone in this. It's something people struggling with anxiety and depression deal with as well. As someone with both, I'm constantly asking myself Why can't I just do this thing? Why don't I want to sit and get this done? It's not hard! But recognizing the struggle is half the battle. The rest of it is finding ways to get around it. Scheduling things and telling others about it can help, so can putting reminders in your phone, or bribing yourself with something. 

It's an ever changing struggle, and I'll let you know if I ever figure it out. In the meantime, have an awesome Monday! It's summer, so make sure you schedule time for play this week!

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