Depression, But With Meds!


One of the things that doesn't get talked about enough is what happens when someone struggling with depression and or anxiety starts taking meds. What happens? Well, nothing at first. In my own experience, the medication I was prescribed was one of the lighter ones, and it took about a month to actually start working. I noticed after about a couple weeks that it was taking more to overwhelm me, and I wasn't breaking down into frustrated tears nearly as much. Granted, it also felt like I was mentally more stable in general. Which was nice.

But here's the other thing. It was super freaking weird! When my brain started changing for the better, instead of getting super excited, it freaked me out, honestly. I didn't know what it was Supposed to feel like, and it felt almost wrong to not be plagued with dark, intrusive thoughts, to be unable to get myself to stop worrying about a situation, overanalyzing social encounters, and to have little to no motivation to do absolutely anything. Gosh, lack of motivation to do anything still hasn't fully gone away, but I feel like it's been tamed, and isn't as bad as it has been.

All in all, I've kind of had to relearn how my brain works, get used to the new, and appreciate feeling like the floating boat I'm on is actually stable, and there's no longer a storm. At least, it's not stormy right now. And I can actually see past the clouds! It's nice. It's not like my depression and anxiety are gone, but feel less weighed down by them.

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